There is one person in my life that knows almost exactly what I went through as a surrogate. This person was there every step of the way; the agency hunt, the IP meet and greet, screenings, contracts, blood work after blood work, first transfer, a phone call that revealed a failed transfer, a second phase of screenings, another IP meet and greet, another transfer, the reveal of triplets, every up and down of the pregnancy, the delivery of the triplets, NICU visits, pumping breast milk several times a day, and now visits with the family I helped create.
My husband was my #1 support throughout the entire surrogacy and without him I really don't know whether I could have done any of it. He should be just as proud of himself as he is of me.
Now that my surrogate journey is over and the past is behind us, I think about what the future holds in terms of another surrogacy. I feel like I have so many pros and cons of the entire process running through my mind every hour of the day. I don't necessarily share these feelings much with anyone. In a way, I am just trying to avoid over reactive comments from family and friends. In other words, many people will think I'm crazy:
"You already were a surrogate, so why do you need to do it again?"
"You hated the pregnancy."
"You really want to put your family through that again?"
"Wasn't helping one family enough?"
"What about having your own children?"
"Are you ever going to stop?"
"Do you think this is good for your body?"
There are so many answers to these questions, but I am really sick of answering them. So, I keep my thoughts to myself about a second journey and if/when the time comes where I want to do it again, I will deal with the annoyances then.
BUT, I don't keep anything from my husband. I completely understand and respect his opinion about me doing another surrogacy. He can never forget those scary moments in the delivery room where my life was at risk. Losing 20 times the normal amount of blood would be scary for anyone. So many things went through his head as I lay there, fading in and out, holding my lifeless hand as 25+ doctors and nurses were screaming and running in and out of the delivery room. If you know my husband you know how emotional and touchy he can get about the talk of death. From the moment I came out of surgery, he stated that he never wanted to think or talk about the delivery again; that was the scariest thing that ever happened to him.
I understand where he is coming from. But I am not too sure he completely understands what I feel about it deep down inside. The last time we had this conversation, a light bulb went off in my head!! My uterus is like a Harley Ride...
I hate the fact that my husband has a motorcycle. He purchased his Harley Davidson when our oldest was just beginning to walk and I was pregnant with our youngest. I didn't like the idea, but after much convincing, I allowed him to get one. He LOVES to ride. As a woman, I can't really understand or relate. As time went on, he did have a few scary incidents that could have ended badly if he didn't make the quick decisions he had made in the moment. Every time I would hear of or see a motorcyclist dead on the rode because of another careless driver, I think of how that could have been him. I remind him all of the time that he has a family and maybe having a motorcycle isn't such a good idea anymore. But, as the discussion always ends, this is his passion and he promises me nothing will ever happen to him.
So, here I am with a passion of surrogacy that can be very risky (in some people's minds). My husband wasn't so hot on the idea of me being a surrogate until I did MY convincing and got him on board. From then, he was fine with the idea and even enjoyed being apart of the entire process. As a man, he cannot understand completely the thrill I got from carrying 3 babies for another family no matter how difficult it was at times. It's impossible for him to know what emotions come into play during and after a pregnancy, especially as a surrogate mother. Most of my emotions are unexplainable; it takes being a surrogate to completely understand. Yes, I put my life at risk just like he does every time he hops on that bike. Yes, there is no guarantee that I won't be pregnant with triplets again just like there is no guarantee that there won't be any stupid drivers around him during his ride. Yes, people die in child birth on occasion just like people die on motorcycle rides. Yes, being a surrogate is my passion just like riding is his.
I think I put things into perspective for him and he can now relate more then ever. I haven't seen a FOR SALE sign on his bike yet, so I know being a surrogate again isn't out of the question. I would never make a decision to become a surrogate without his full support, and I don't want to have to beg and plead. I think over time he will come around if this is what I still really want. But until then, I want him to be able to forget what happened in the past and give him time to heal from that emotional experience. I love my husband more than anything in this world and he will always be my number one support.
Love you, Honey!!
Monday, July 11, 2011
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Happy Birthday to My Little Lover, Jackson!!
I know this is not entirely surrogacy related, but I wanted to wish my oldest son, Jackson, a very happy 4th birthday today!! This guy has changed my life in so many ways. When he first came into my life, I instantly fell in love. I never knew I could love someone the way I love him. He made me a mommy and I couldn't be happier with the relationship we share. He is the biggest little lover you will ever meet; there is not a day that goes by where my day is not filled with lots of hugs and kisses. I love you, Jack!!
24 hours of labor SUCKED! And after pushing a 10 1/2 pound baby out,
I NEVER want to do that again!
This was THE BIGGEST baby in the NICU! He had a little infection =(
Me and Jack, just days old
Now Jackson (left) is 4 and his best friend is
his little brother, Max!
So handsome at his bowling party
Nice job!!
Thanks CaliCakery!! (Oh, wait, that's me!!)
Saturday, June 18, 2011
My thoughts on a future surrogacy
As most of you experience after your first or second surrogacy, one question you get asked most is whether you are going to do another surrogacy again. Some women know right after delivery that they are up to helping a family again as soon as they can. There are even some who thought the process was altogether emotionally difficult and are happy with just one. Then, there are women like myself who go back and forth so many times and are not sure whether or not another surrogacy is best for them. I have outweighed so many pros and cons of being a surrogate mother. In a way I am so satisfied with my one journey and I not only had one baby, but 3!! On the other hand, I feel some sort of responsibility to someone out there. Here I am with this amazing gift and if I already succeeded with one surrogate pregnancy, why should I stop myself from helping someone again if I am physically and emotionally able to? And I do have to take my family's thoughts and opinions into consideration as well. They are effected by this just as much as anyone and I would not want to become a burden on anyone again.
After over 9 months of the going back and forth game, I have really learned so much about myself and about my decision thanks to some close friends and family.
After being a surrogate, people you know really start to open up and trust you with their infertility issues. I had no idea how many people I know personally who are having serious problems with getting pregnant. It breaks my heart to have to sit here and read or listen to the things they are going through while I am on the other end with this professional uterus that can not only have babies of her own so easily, but also have someone else's babies as well. I know it isn't my fault, but I just feel so guilty. Why am I so blessed in this area while others are not? What did I do to deserve this child bearing ability? Whatever the reason, I am so glad that I took full advantage of it.
I just got done talking with an old best friend of mine, who has had her fair share of struggles, and it just got me thinking about a lot of things. I also got some very bad news from a VERY close relative of mine and can not stop thinking about what her future will entail. The list goes on, but these 2 people really hit me hard. Not only are they so young and beautiful, but they don't deserve this. No one does.
So, I think I have made my final decision about the future of my surrogacy. Since I am technically allowed only 2 more pregnancies (putting me at 4 c-sections, which is pushing it especially since one was a triplet pregnancy), that leaves me with a big decision. I have decided to have one more of my own, leaving me with 3 children. I know I have gone back and forth whether I wanted to wait or not for another baby, but I think my hormones have settled down and in the next several months my husband and I are going to try one last time =) I really want our kids to be close in age and my oldest turns 4 in a few weeks, so we need to get on it (literally!!). After we have our little miracle, my plan is to help a friend or even family member who really deserves it. That is the biggest dream of mine; being a surrogate for someone close to me and being able to give them a miracle. There is no guarantee that someone may need my help, but I am putting it out there and let them know that they will always have me to fall back on. I couldn't imagine helping a complete stranger knowing that I know several women out there that are struggling and just cannot afford surrogacy like most couples. Besides, wouldn't it just be an AMAZING story to tell?!?
The other option I would consider, but highly doubt will happen, is if the parents of the triplets decided to have another child. Could you imagine another set of triplets?!? I have asked them lots of times and I think they are very happy with their 3 girls, but if the slight chance arises, I would never back down from that opportunity.
I have no idea what may happen in the future, but I am just hoping that God has great plans for me. I know I need to help someone again and I would get no greater satisfaction then doing it for a loved one. Let's hope that nature does its thing and it does not have to come to this, but if it doesn't, then I pray I will be able to help. Love all my girls struggling out there... don't give up because it's worth the fight!!
After over 9 months of the going back and forth game, I have really learned so much about myself and about my decision thanks to some close friends and family.
After being a surrogate, people you know really start to open up and trust you with their infertility issues. I had no idea how many people I know personally who are having serious problems with getting pregnant. It breaks my heart to have to sit here and read or listen to the things they are going through while I am on the other end with this professional uterus that can not only have babies of her own so easily, but also have someone else's babies as well. I know it isn't my fault, but I just feel so guilty. Why am I so blessed in this area while others are not? What did I do to deserve this child bearing ability? Whatever the reason, I am so glad that I took full advantage of it.
I just got done talking with an old best friend of mine, who has had her fair share of struggles, and it just got me thinking about a lot of things. I also got some very bad news from a VERY close relative of mine and can not stop thinking about what her future will entail. The list goes on, but these 2 people really hit me hard. Not only are they so young and beautiful, but they don't deserve this. No one does.
So, I think I have made my final decision about the future of my surrogacy. Since I am technically allowed only 2 more pregnancies (putting me at 4 c-sections, which is pushing it especially since one was a triplet pregnancy), that leaves me with a big decision. I have decided to have one more of my own, leaving me with 3 children. I know I have gone back and forth whether I wanted to wait or not for another baby, but I think my hormones have settled down and in the next several months my husband and I are going to try one last time =) I really want our kids to be close in age and my oldest turns 4 in a few weeks, so we need to get on it (literally!!). After we have our little miracle, my plan is to help a friend or even family member who really deserves it. That is the biggest dream of mine; being a surrogate for someone close to me and being able to give them a miracle. There is no guarantee that someone may need my help, but I am putting it out there and let them know that they will always have me to fall back on. I couldn't imagine helping a complete stranger knowing that I know several women out there that are struggling and just cannot afford surrogacy like most couples. Besides, wouldn't it just be an AMAZING story to tell?!?
The other option I would consider, but highly doubt will happen, is if the parents of the triplets decided to have another child. Could you imagine another set of triplets?!? I have asked them lots of times and I think they are very happy with their 3 girls, but if the slight chance arises, I would never back down from that opportunity.
I have no idea what may happen in the future, but I am just hoping that God has great plans for me. I know I need to help someone again and I would get no greater satisfaction then doing it for a loved one. Let's hope that nature does its thing and it does not have to come to this, but if it doesn't, then I pray I will be able to help. Love all my girls struggling out there... don't give up because it's worth the fight!!
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Another Visit!!
This past Sunday, my hubby and I made a day out of visiting the girls and their parents. We had the greatest time and my surro triplets are just the cutest things!!!
We got there just in time to get them up from their first nap. As soon as we walked into the nursery... big smiles!!! I didn't want to overwhelm them with 2 strange faces, but they warmed up very fast. I held Eve immediately and all she wanted to do was give me hugs!! She had a very tight grip onto me =) After May was all changed, I got to hold her. Every time I spoke, she would back away from me and give me this very confused look. Believe it or not, it was like she was familiar with my voice. Both Eve and May had no problem with me and they loved my company. Lily was great with me too, but for some reason, she LOVED Cameron (my hubby). Throughout the entire day, Lily would make her way to him and always made sure he was looking her way. Too cute (he needs a girl =)
We then went to feed the chunks... they eat soooo much!!! It is so cute how feeding becomes an assembly line. They eat all kinds of fruits and veggies and are only down to 3 bottles a day. Those chunky girls are getting so big that the doctor requested that they get rid of the 4th bottle they were getting. Go girls!!
Next, it was time to play. Now that the girls are older (9 months old), they can stay up for longer periods of time. We got to play for 3 hours!!! We even took them outside and had a great time watching them roll, chew, laugh, and play.
After we all put them down for their nap, I couldn't believe how well their parents are at this now. They make having triplets so easy!! So very happy and proud of this family I helped create.
I know you want to see some pics, so here are a few... enjoy!!
We got there just in time to get them up from their first nap. As soon as we walked into the nursery... big smiles!!! I didn't want to overwhelm them with 2 strange faces, but they warmed up very fast. I held Eve immediately and all she wanted to do was give me hugs!! She had a very tight grip onto me =) After May was all changed, I got to hold her. Every time I spoke, she would back away from me and give me this very confused look. Believe it or not, it was like she was familiar with my voice. Both Eve and May had no problem with me and they loved my company. Lily was great with me too, but for some reason, she LOVED Cameron (my hubby). Throughout the entire day, Lily would make her way to him and always made sure he was looking her way. Too cute (he needs a girl =)
We then went to feed the chunks... they eat soooo much!!! It is so cute how feeding becomes an assembly line. They eat all kinds of fruits and veggies and are only down to 3 bottles a day. Those chunky girls are getting so big that the doctor requested that they get rid of the 4th bottle they were getting. Go girls!!
Next, it was time to play. Now that the girls are older (9 months old), they can stay up for longer periods of time. We got to play for 3 hours!!! We even took them outside and had a great time watching them roll, chew, laugh, and play.
After we all put them down for their nap, I couldn't believe how well their parents are at this now. They make having triplets so easy!! So very happy and proud of this family I helped create.
I know you want to see some pics, so here are a few... enjoy!!
I bought them each a Juicy summer dress
Me with Eve and May (the identicals)
Little May (I think)
Eve, May, and Lily
Lily is so close to crawling
Possibly May
Lily would roll all the way to Cameron
Impossible to get a pic with them all looking and smiling
Baby Eve (pretty sure!)
Lily, posing for Cameron
Cameron and Lily
Eve, modeling the dress... and then they all started to fight over the
gift bag!!!
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
The Power of The Blog!!
When I started writing my blog very early on in my surrogate pregnancy, I never knew it would turn out the way it did. Heck, I didn't even think I would continue writing after the first 2 posts.
My husband overly encouraged me (like he does with a lot of things) to start blogging about my feelings and the process of being a surrogate. At first when he suggested it, I said "What the hell is a blog?!?" Of course I kind of had an idea, but I really only thought a certain group of people actually blogged; journalists, scholars, sport reporters, Julia and Julia, etc. After he set it all up for me, design and everything (that is what I mean by "overly"=), I then asked, "Who is really going to read this?!" Well, he told me that it didn't matter and that maybe doing this will help someone else out there in the surrogate world...
Boy was he right (and I don't say that very much)! Not only did I find out that there were hundreds of blogs related to surrogacy, but I also realized that people liked to read mine. At the beginning of the pregnancy, I was blogging about all of the emotions I was dealing with, most of which were bottled up. It was a great way to express myself and an even better way for the people around me to get the idea of what I was going through without having to pry it out of me. At times, it was a little difficult for my IP's to read (it can be a hard reality when faced with the fact that your surrogate is experiencing deep depression). But, I would have to say, that without my blog, my IP's probably would have been left in the dark most of the time because expressing my feelings face to face was impossible for me to do in my state of mind.
It wasn't until after my pregnancy did I realize that my blog had an effect on other people. I never looked at it that way; I always saw my blog as a means of reaching out for support and my followers encouraged me every moment that I needed it. But, it was an amazing feeling once I began guiding others through similar situations; whether it be surrogates, IP's, or family members of someone involved with surrogacy. It is a much different feeling when you are seeing things from the other side (much easier too =).
People started to reach out to me, and most of the time I never knew they were a follower of my blog. I think I get contacted every few weeks with someone with a very similar situation, and some have very interesting stories!! Oh, and most of the surrogates and IP's that contact me all have one big thing in common... triplets!!! If you haven't experienced this then you really have no idea how hard it is. Yes, you can read our thoughts and emotions as we are experiencing them, but you honestly can't even imagine what a roller coaster it can be. I remember back when I found out I was pregnant with triplets. A retired surrogate who carried triplets reached out to me and answered the questions I had- At the beginning, I really didn't know what I was in for and I was really in denial (which a lot of women do in the beginning). She broke it down for me and gave me a reality check that I will never forget.... "Those were the worst days of my life. I wanted nothing more than to just slip into a coma and not wake up until the babies were born. All joking aside, I really wanted to die." At first I thought this lady was crazy and very morbid, but hell, that was an understatement!!! LOL!!
So, lately I feel really encouraged to blog more. I have lots of advice for the IP's out there dealing with all sorts of situations. I also have never ending supportive topics for the surrogates. If any of you have a personal question or comment, my email address is always available and it is my pleasure to help out. If I were rich, I would travel all over the world and meet with people in need of encouraging and support, but heck, if I were rich I would do A LOT of things =)
And some amazing stats on the views on my blog...
My husband overly encouraged me (like he does with a lot of things) to start blogging about my feelings and the process of being a surrogate. At first when he suggested it, I said "What the hell is a blog?!?" Of course I kind of had an idea, but I really only thought a certain group of people actually blogged; journalists, scholars, sport reporters, Julia and Julia, etc. After he set it all up for me, design and everything (that is what I mean by "overly"=), I then asked, "Who is really going to read this?!" Well, he told me that it didn't matter and that maybe doing this will help someone else out there in the surrogate world...
Boy was he right (and I don't say that very much)! Not only did I find out that there were hundreds of blogs related to surrogacy, but I also realized that people liked to read mine. At the beginning of the pregnancy, I was blogging about all of the emotions I was dealing with, most of which were bottled up. It was a great way to express myself and an even better way for the people around me to get the idea of what I was going through without having to pry it out of me. At times, it was a little difficult for my IP's to read (it can be a hard reality when faced with the fact that your surrogate is experiencing deep depression). But, I would have to say, that without my blog, my IP's probably would have been left in the dark most of the time because expressing my feelings face to face was impossible for me to do in my state of mind.
It wasn't until after my pregnancy did I realize that my blog had an effect on other people. I never looked at it that way; I always saw my blog as a means of reaching out for support and my followers encouraged me every moment that I needed it. But, it was an amazing feeling once I began guiding others through similar situations; whether it be surrogates, IP's, or family members of someone involved with surrogacy. It is a much different feeling when you are seeing things from the other side (much easier too =).
People started to reach out to me, and most of the time I never knew they were a follower of my blog. I think I get contacted every few weeks with someone with a very similar situation, and some have very interesting stories!! Oh, and most of the surrogates and IP's that contact me all have one big thing in common... triplets!!! If you haven't experienced this then you really have no idea how hard it is. Yes, you can read our thoughts and emotions as we are experiencing them, but you honestly can't even imagine what a roller coaster it can be. I remember back when I found out I was pregnant with triplets. A retired surrogate who carried triplets reached out to me and answered the questions I had- At the beginning, I really didn't know what I was in for and I was really in denial (which a lot of women do in the beginning). She broke it down for me and gave me a reality check that I will never forget.... "Those were the worst days of my life. I wanted nothing more than to just slip into a coma and not wake up until the babies were born. All joking aside, I really wanted to die." At first I thought this lady was crazy and very morbid, but hell, that was an understatement!!! LOL!!
So, lately I feel really encouraged to blog more. I have lots of advice for the IP's out there dealing with all sorts of situations. I also have never ending supportive topics for the surrogates. If any of you have a personal question or comment, my email address is always available and it is my pleasure to help out. If I were rich, I would travel all over the world and meet with people in need of encouraging and support, but heck, if I were rich I would do A LOT of things =)
And some amazing stats on the views on my blog...
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Friday, June 3, 2011
9 Months Old and Even Cuter!!
Just had to show off my 3 little miracles!! They just turned 9 months old. Wow does time fly by!! I cannot believe how much they all are starting to look alike (well, duh, they're triplets Ashley!!). But, I could tell them apart 100% for the first 6 months, and now I am questioning my guesses =)
I am very excited because I get to visit them next Sunday!!! It has been a few months and I am missing them a bit. My hubby is so happy he gets to come with me... the last time he saw them was in the delivery room. So excited!!
I am very excited because I get to visit them next Sunday!!! It has been a few months and I am missing them a bit. My hubby is so happy he gets to come with me... the last time he saw them was in the delivery room. So excited!!
Monday, May 16, 2011
Drum Roll Please.... BEFORE and AFTER!!!!
Okay, okay... here it is! I know I have been promising my before and after pictures of my not-so-perfect body, but I have finally gathered up enough courage to do it. Don't scroll down just yet, it is making me nervous =)
So, I have been working on getting my after body for a few months now. I cannot believe that I set a goal and actually reached it. Some people may be thinking, so you just lost the baby weight and that just comes off with time. Well, you are soooo wrong!!
I had my surro triplets in September 2010. Throughout my 32 weeks of pregnancy, I gained a total of 38 pounds. Not bad. Prior to actually getting pregnant, and taking hormone injections and pills for 6 months, I gained 15 pounds. So, when I found out the transfer actually worked, I was kind of chunky =) Anyway, after having the girls, and without dieting or exercising, I lost the 38 pounds after just a few short months. I am pretty sure pumping the amount of milk I had helped me burn lots of calories. Although I was very happy that the baby weight came off so fast, I still was very uncomfortable in my skin.
If you didn't know already, I had 3 pregnancies in just 3 years (my 2 boys are 15 months apart) and I have delivered a total of 5 babies before I reached age 27!! My first baby, in July 2007, was a whopping 10 pounds 3 ounces (yes, a natural birth). My second, in September 2008, was delivered 2 weeks early and was 8 pounds 6 ounces. Then, the girls were delivered less than a year ago and their weights totaled more than 13 pounds!! I think my body has gone through hell these past few years!!!
So, after I had the girls, I really wanted to do something for me. I never felt more uncomfortable with my body. Something on the outside just didn't match with the inside. When I looked at pictures of myself, I didn't feel the way I looked. But, I never thought I could change. I truly thought that this was the way I was destined to be. I was going to have to live with this body because it was permanently damaged from all of these babies!! But, I was out to prove myself wrong!!
My wonderful sister introduced me to a really good friend of hers; Melissa was a personal trainer and owned her own fitness center, Perfection Fitness. She agreed to train me and guide me through the right diet as long as I stuck with it and gave her the results she knew I could reach. When I first met with her, January 11th, 2011, I could not believe what goal we set for myself... to lose 30 pounds by May 1st!!! When she told me that, I just laughed. In my mind I knew it was never going to happen. 30 pounds?!? That's like Biggest Loser style! I didn't stress about it much because I knew it was impossible and NEVER going to happen.
For the first time in my life, I stuck with something and met every single weight loss goal that came each week. I never gave up. And I did all of this the right way. I never starved myself. I exercised daily and stayed on a very healthy diet.
In just 3 1/2 months, I lost 31 pounds!!
And, here it is (my heart is racing). Keep in mind that I had TRIPLETS!! Oh, and I still have a little bit of work to do. Drum roll please.......
I can't believe I just posted this!! LOL!!! But, I hope this is encouraging to some of you out there, especially those of you who have had, or are having, multiples. Really, if I can do it anyone can. I think the hardest part is starting. Once you get started and see results, you don't want to stop. Yes, there were weeks where my weight loss came to a halt and my hard work wasn't paying off, but I got through it, didn't get discouraged, and never stopped.
I love this line and always told myself, "You gotta give something to get something." Things just don't happen overnight, nor are things just given to you. If you put your heart and soul into something, it will definitely pay off in the end.
So, now I feel amazing!! I have so much more energy and I haven't felt this comfortable in my body for a long time. I feel like the woman my husband married 5 years ago (and 10 pounds lighter than that day) and I know he isn't complaining =) Although I reached this amazing goal, I think I will go for just 10 more!! Go me!
So, I have been working on getting my after body for a few months now. I cannot believe that I set a goal and actually reached it. Some people may be thinking, so you just lost the baby weight and that just comes off with time. Well, you are soooo wrong!!
I had my surro triplets in September 2010. Throughout my 32 weeks of pregnancy, I gained a total of 38 pounds. Not bad. Prior to actually getting pregnant, and taking hormone injections and pills for 6 months, I gained 15 pounds. So, when I found out the transfer actually worked, I was kind of chunky =) Anyway, after having the girls, and without dieting or exercising, I lost the 38 pounds after just a few short months. I am pretty sure pumping the amount of milk I had helped me burn lots of calories. Although I was very happy that the baby weight came off so fast, I still was very uncomfortable in my skin.
If you didn't know already, I had 3 pregnancies in just 3 years (my 2 boys are 15 months apart) and I have delivered a total of 5 babies before I reached age 27!! My first baby, in July 2007, was a whopping 10 pounds 3 ounces (yes, a natural birth). My second, in September 2008, was delivered 2 weeks early and was 8 pounds 6 ounces. Then, the girls were delivered less than a year ago and their weights totaled more than 13 pounds!! I think my body has gone through hell these past few years!!!
So, after I had the girls, I really wanted to do something for me. I never felt more uncomfortable with my body. Something on the outside just didn't match with the inside. When I looked at pictures of myself, I didn't feel the way I looked. But, I never thought I could change. I truly thought that this was the way I was destined to be. I was going to have to live with this body because it was permanently damaged from all of these babies!! But, I was out to prove myself wrong!!
My wonderful sister introduced me to a really good friend of hers; Melissa was a personal trainer and owned her own fitness center, Perfection Fitness. She agreed to train me and guide me through the right diet as long as I stuck with it and gave her the results she knew I could reach. When I first met with her, January 11th, 2011, I could not believe what goal we set for myself... to lose 30 pounds by May 1st!!! When she told me that, I just laughed. In my mind I knew it was never going to happen. 30 pounds?!? That's like Biggest Loser style! I didn't stress about it much because I knew it was impossible and NEVER going to happen.
For the first time in my life, I stuck with something and met every single weight loss goal that came each week. I never gave up. And I did all of this the right way. I never starved myself. I exercised daily and stayed on a very healthy diet.
In just 3 1/2 months, I lost 31 pounds!!
And, here it is (my heart is racing). Keep in mind that I had TRIPLETS!! Oh, and I still have a little bit of work to do. Drum roll please.......
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I can't believe I just posted this!! LOL!!! But, I hope this is encouraging to some of you out there, especially those of you who have had, or are having, multiples. Really, if I can do it anyone can. I think the hardest part is starting. Once you get started and see results, you don't want to stop. Yes, there were weeks where my weight loss came to a halt and my hard work wasn't paying off, but I got through it, didn't get discouraged, and never stopped.
I love this line and always told myself, "You gotta give something to get something." Things just don't happen overnight, nor are things just given to you. If you put your heart and soul into something, it will definitely pay off in the end.
So, now I feel amazing!! I have so much more energy and I haven't felt this comfortable in my body for a long time. I feel like the woman my husband married 5 years ago (and 10 pounds lighter than that day) and I know he isn't complaining =) Although I reached this amazing goal, I think I will go for just 10 more!! Go me!
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