Thursday, September 27, 2012

I'VE BEEN BLESSED.... DOUBLE TIME!!!

This is a must read.  All of you that have read and sent me so many encouraging words, I just want to thank you.  Can I just say that good things really do come to those who wait?!?!

OH. MY. GOODNESS. 

In the matter of a few weeks my life just changed completely. I know, you are sooooo anxious to know, but let me give you the details....

So, as you know, I have been trying to conceive for over a year now.  Throughout this journey, I have experienced 2 miscarriages.  Never in a million years did I think I would be that person with infertility issues, especially after having my surrogate triplets.  My world just seemed to be unfair; I hated the constant struggle.  Well, I made the decision that I needed answers.  I wanted to know if something was wrong.  I had set an appointment with my OB doctor for September 20th, but about a week before I was scheduled to go in I got this....





Wow!!!! I was pregnant once again! My first thought was, "Don't get too excited because you know what can happen in these early weeks."  My next thought was, "Dang, these are very strong positives seeing as my period isn't due for another 5 days!!"  I was over the moon and just felt so good about this one.  It was the first time in a long time that I actually felt really pregnant.  I was beyond happy.

Fast forward about a week to my doctor's appointment that I decided to keep just in case anything went wrong, and he decided to put me on progesterone as a precaution and order 2 hcg blood draws.  I had one done that day.  My number came back at 653 (pretty high for only being 4 weeks 2 days). Then, in 48 hours, I had another.... 1,468!!!  Now, after being a surrogate, I know what those numbers mean.  Immediately, I got a little nervous.  What if it's multiples???  No, no.  It can't be.  Near impossible.  Enough said, let's move on.  Well, the doctor requested that I come in that next week (which was yesterday) to get an ultrasound so maybe we can determine how far along I really am (he thought I was a little further since my hcg levels were so high).  And so, I headed to the doctor's, all alone.  My hubby was in Texas for a business trip and he called it.  With all of the worrying and stressing about the "what ifs" from the very beginning of the pregnancy, he was spot on....




TWINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Can you freaking believe it?!?!?!?!  What in the world did my body do???  Can someone please explain this?  I really wish there was a camera on in that ultrasound room with me because that moment when I saw 2 sacs on that screen was HILARIOUS!!!  The doctor and the nurse could not stop laughing at my reaction.... How did this happen?? What am I going to do?  I was supposed to be done at 3!! I just had triplets!!!! HOW DID THIS HAPPEN????

Wow.  That is all I can say still after 24 hours of finding out I am pregnant with twins, naturally.  And no, twins do not run in my family AT ALL.  There has NEVER been a set of twins, ever!!!  And no, I wasn't on any sort of fertility drugs for this to happen.  This was all God's way of giving me back those 2 babies that I miscarried.  This all happened for a reason.

So many things are going through my mind right now and I hope my husband decides to make his flight home tonight =).  Our lives are totally going to change, but I am soooooo thrilled about this.  Yes, this is not what we set out for, but it is just a HUGE blessing!!! I am not positive how far along I am (guessing about 6 weeks) but we do go in again in another couple weeks so we can do some measurements and get an exact due date.  I know we are still in the danger zone, so I am praying everyday that both babies (OMG, I'm having 2!!) stay healthy and strong. 

Did you ever imagine THIS happening?!?!  I will definitely keep you all updated... this is a crazy life after surrogacy =).