Well, today marks a very special day for me... exactly a year ago today, we had our BIG transfer and started growing 3 beautiful baby girls. The day is still so clear to me and I can't believe it has been a year already.
I remember that our transfer was originally scheduled for Superbowl Sunday. We had to be in the fertility clinic pretty early in the morning. As my husband and I were heading out the door, the phone call came that postponed the transfer for another day. Are you serious?!? That was the worst thing ever!! I was so mentally prepared for the whole thing and anticipating it all. I had childcare set up and my husband finally accepted that he had to cancel his big football plans. But, the embryos weren't perfect just yet and another day of them sitting would make them A+ embryos. The decision was made to wait until the following morning. Man was I frustrated!!!
So, the next morning came. LA traffic, I hate you!!! It took over 2 hours to get to the clinic, which should have only took one. I was so frustrated by the time I got to the office, but I tried to calm myself down before the transfer took place. We waited what seemed like forever. My IP's were there and they were so excited. My husband was more nervous than all of us; not only was his wife getting implanted with someone else's embryos, but he also had to report to an interview the same morning with PepsiCo which ended up changing our lives!!
The procedure was pretty easy for me, no pain. I sat laying down for a couple hours, the bed reclined so that my feet were higher than my head. I was then told I could go to the bathroom and go home to my 24 hours of bed rest. I was so nervous to go pee!!! I just thought I might pee those embryos right out!! But, I had already held it in long enough so I did my best not to push anything too hard down there =) From the office to the car, to the car to my bed, I walked with my legs as closed as I could!! I know this sounds silly, but I really kept thinking those babies could just slide right out!!
Remembering that my first attempt at surrogacy failed, I was super paranoid with the following days. I stayed on bed rest an extra day and tried not to lift any amount of weight for a couple weeks. My IP's really wanted me to take a home pregnancy test as often as I wanted to following the transfer. So, my mom brought home a year supply from her hospital and I took them religiously!!! No, these tests aren't accurate after a transfer. Day after day, I kept taking them. They all were different and that second line was sometimes present, but always so faint. I remember studying those tests for the longest time with my husband. How many times could we ask each other, "Is there a second line or not??" Well, apparently there was!!! My blood test showed that my hormone level was HIGH...
I remember the nurse calling me with the results, saying it was AT LEAST 2!! Wow!! And, the rest of the story is history =)
I love looking back and reading my posts from last year. I definitely went through some hard times. But, I will stick to my words... no one will EVER know what I went through. I have been in contact with someone who is starting a journey that is very similar to mine. She is the same age as I was when I found out the BIG news; 2 embryos transferred, both took, one split. Just as I was experiencing the worst emotions of my life, so is she. Reading how much pain and depression she is already experiencing reminds me of how much carrying triplets for another couple drains you physically and emotionally. There are very few people out there that can say they know how she is feeling, but the majority of her family and friends will never be able to say the right things to her and support her in the way she needs. I hated hearing everyday that "this is all going to be alright", "it will all end soon", and "just think of the wonderful thing you are doing." I'm glad that she found me and I can be of some support for her. I know EXACTLY how she is feeling and it breaks my heart knowing someone has to go through some of those emotions I went through. There will be a day where she will look back and appreciate the journey God had blessed her with. She will soon be able to say that she is more proud of herself than she has ever been in her life. Once those babies are born, she will look at life in a whole new light and appreciate every moment more than ever before!! You know who you are... and I'm here for you!!
Transfer days can go one of 2 ways and I am so fortunate that I had a successful one. I can't imagine having to go through another failed attempt. I can't believe how much my life has changed this past year. It has definitely been a very interesting journey that I will cherish forever.